I might loose a lot of followers for this, and I understand since I would a while ago been thoroughly pissed off by a text like this, I know these texts make no difference in the convinced and controlling mind of person with eating disorders, not thinking that people understand or see why or what one is trying to achieve, but I have just realised that this is terribly terribly wrong, and I need to shape up, because I thought my life would be so much better if I was thinner, if I could fit into the smaller sizes of clothing, that people would change towards me, that I would be more loved, But I have realized that the only thing that I don’t appreciate is my weight loss, I haven’t noticed one single pound, and I never see the difference even if I se how the number on the scale lowers, the constant hunger that I felt before that I thought empowered me now disgust me, because I never achieve what I want, And I wont If I keep on like this, Being thinner will not make me happier, starving myself will not make people love me more, Because I am loved anyway, by people who love me for my sense of humor, and my wit, And there is so much else to live for, so much to se, and feel and smell and even taste! I’m not just starving myself but allsow starving my experience and my life. And I will stop that from now on. I will be healthy for myself because there is so much to do, and stopping myself from doing things will not make me happier. I hope you understand, and if not that one day you will feel the same way! you deserve it! And I love you! even though this blog is sick, and I am ashamed of being responsible for a thing like this, when people liked pictures and reblogged, just the feeling of someone understanding and being there, being through the same thing and having the same thoughts helped me to see that I didn’t want this for anyone else, and there for I should not want it for me! WE ARE WORTH MORE THAN THIS! we deserve life in the fullest! And I love you, and I am so proud of you all! you are all beautiful, and strong and you can do what ever you want! And I hope that you will one day se how much you deserve, and that you will get better and understand!
love
Julia
